rocketcock

Jesus Buttfucking Christ it's been a long time since I've posted anything on this piece of shit journal. And there's totally no excuse for it; I haven't been doing anything of particular interest. I've been chillin' out in my underwear, skipping classes, and playing Skyrim until I'm holding back puke from the wonky camera angles.

Also, I've been working, but that's just at a headshop, so it's more like, I've been getting paid to play games on my phone and scratch my crotch, while occasionally selling a pipe or two. I mean, I guess that's kind of work. Sometimes it's a bad itch. Sometimes I'm on a hard level in Stupid Zombies...that's totally work, right? Yeah.

These are some fun facts about my life as of right now:
1) I am freshly single-- again, but for real this time. I can show my titties to anyone I want to and don't have to worry about feeling guilty for groping other women. Fuckin' sweet.

2) I'm going to California in January to visit my wonderful friend Jessie. We are going to be fucking dorks and run around dressed like South Park characters. Because we can.

3) My cat decided to sit on my lap while I was naked yesterday. It was awkward. She got mad when I tried to push her off and she meowed in my face.

4) My band is still guitarist-less. But we wrote a new song. About buttfucking and cheating girlfriends.

5) If I pass my classes this semester, it will be a miracle. I think I say that every semester, but for real this time.

6) I'm going to be an art major. I'm not very good at drawing, but I don't really care. I'm doing it anyway.

7) I haven't dyed my hair any wonky color since last May. It has been very very blond since. I'd worry that I was becoming somewhat normal, but looking back on this post, I can assure myself that I most certainly am not.

8) My best friend Matt recently took a picture of himself posing like naked!Rose from Titanic. Heart of the Ocean necklace and all. And then put it up on his facebook.

9) We have a new puppy. His name is Tweek. He's really cute, but he's bad. I told him if he doesn't start behaving, I'll sell him to asians and he will become my sweet and sour chicken. He never started behaving. If any asians are reading this, please do not hesitate to contact me. He is small, but there is some meat on him.

10) My body hurts for no reason whatsoever. I think maybe I need to shit. But I don't think I do.

Okay, that's all I can really think to post. Now I'm going to take my pants off, as I have been home from work for the past hour now and they're still on. Then I'm going to either go on a hunt for food, or I'm going to keep telling myself that I'm hungry but do nothing about it.

Happy belated Turkey day, or whatever, I guess.

Things have been shitty lately, and I've realized that I have absolutely no life, I rely on other people to make myself happy too much, and I need to start doing more to make things better for myself instead of laying in bed crying. Obviously I need to go out and start being more social instead of just relying on one person, because I've learned that the person you rely on can't always be there. They have their own life to worry about, and I'm far too needy and quite honestly I've been pretty damn selfish lately. Besides, relying on a person to make me happy all the time isn't healthy, and it puts a bad strain on the relationship between myself and the person I rely on. It's something I need to work on. I need to learn how to make myself happy, because for as long as I can remember, I have always relied on somebody to be the one and only source of my happiness, and nothing good can ever come out of that.

So, I've written a list of things that I can do when I'm on my own to keep myself from being miserable and going crazy. My goal is to do everything on this list at least once during the rest of my summer, and hopefully continue the habit of finding something to do with my time once the school year has started. This is what I've got so far.

Things to do when I am bored, sad, or feeling crazy in general and am alone or feeling anti-social:

+Write.
-Fics
-Paper Nightmares
-Comic scripts
-Lyrics
+Research for comics
+Rearrange my room/find things to get rid of and throw away
+Go on a walk or drive
+Read HP 1-7
+Read something new
+Practice the piano or guitar
+Take a shower. Bonus points if I shave my legs
+Job hunt
+Paint, draw, do art of some kind
+Alphabetize my dvds
+Pick my nose
+Sew patches onto jackets
+Blow bubbles
+Play with the cat
+Clean the litter box
+Sing. Loudly.
+Throw heavy objects at things
+Throw heavy objects at people
+Masturbate
+Find stuffed animals to blow up
+Learn how to use a lighter so I can blow things up
+Overcome my fear of birds
+Clip my nails
+Do laundry. My underwear is disappearing fast.
+Color. There are coloring books and crayons all over my room, I might as well put them to use.
+Find random mailboxes to put my colored masterpeices in
+Change the lightbulbs in my room, as I do believe they are dying
+Masturbate
+Build a fort
+Learn how to work the electronic devices I own
+Pretend to be an exterminator and reek havoc on my bug-infested basement
+Beg strangers for cash so I can renew my WoW sub
+Wash/clean my car. It smells like shit and there are McDonalds bags on the floor from mid-April.
+Take pictures of stuff
+Find new things to horde
+Call my uncle about renting an apartment from him
+Find new music to listen to
+Listen to all the songs on my itunes playlist that have been there for years but that I've still never listened to before
+Learn how to make new obnoxious noises
+Write more lists
+Break things
+Attempt to fix the things I break
+Start that goddamn master fic list I've been trying to write for two fucking years
+Write chores and such on sticky notes and leave them around the house so I can make myself useful every once in a while
+Watch "Orgazmo" repeatedly until I've memorized the entire script
+Behind my bed, I have a giant stack of magazines that's been piling up for the last 5 years. I could go through them, read articles, cut out pictures, and discard the ones that are no longer useful to me
+Learn to /stop/ hording
+Go on adventures
+Invent something useful
+Invent something completely useless
+Learn to cook
+Teach myself to look at people while I speak to them
+Write notes to myself for stressful situations
+Write notes of what I want to talk about in therapy so I don't forget as soon as I sit down
+Clear my face of acne, destroy the giant wort on my finger once and for all, floss my teeth for once goddammit
+Rearrange the family room
+Read a dictionary. Write down and memorize words that are particularly funny or that sound cool. Try to use new words in every day conversation
+Partake in every day conversation
+Play video games
+Collect pop cans
+If all else fails, sleep.


Seriously, I'm going to do everything on this list. I think it's the only way to keep myself from going completely insane. I'll try to make regular posts about the things that I've done, and hopefully it'll be relatively interesting.

If anybody has any suggestions of other things I can do to keep myself busy, please let me know. I really, really, really love doing stuff. I just never know what to do.

So this is my new LJ account...y'know, in case nobody could like, tell. Or something. I'll be fairly busy for the next few days, or at least pretending that I'll be fairly busy, so it's going to continue to be kind of naked and boring for a little while.

Also, my previous account was semi-private, but because nobody outside of my flist over there knows about this account, I'll leave it open for now.

I've transferred most of my fics over to a dreamwidth account, which can be found here: http://rocketcock.dreamwidth.org/

Eventually I'll have a masterlist of all my fics on this account, but I don't know when that will be, since I've been promising myself a masterlist for like, three years and I just never do it.

So, anyway, yeah. That's it for now. I'm gonna go back to playing WoW now.